February update.

Ok, so it's been ages since my last post, but so much has happened in the last few weeks, so I a) didn't get a chance to blog, and b) wasn't in the mood for it anyway.

I'm sure no one is interested in my sorrows, so, in a nutshell, my cute pomeranian - our littleist family member - got run over by my sister, and after a week and a half of hospitalisation and false hopes, we had to let him go. I think I finally know what it feels like to be heartbroken. I realised during the hour we were making that critical decision in the hospital that the vet was largely responsible for little Teddy's fate, because, after asking the vet about anticoagulants to dissolve his leg clot, she seemed to hesitate, then told us afterwards that they couldn't have given him anticoagulants during the week he was under hospital care, due to his extensive bruising. And there we have it. The evidence of negligence. Such utter nonsense. Even humans get enoxaparin/heparin injections every day while being immobile in hospital, to address the increased clot risk; why would it be any different for animals? It is because he had extensive bruising that it's even more necessary to keep an eye out for clots. But what's the use of pointing the finger now; Teddy won't come back. I just want him to rest peacefully now.

The crematorium is delivering his ashes back to us on Friday, so he'll finally be returning home again. I need to do more research about the most appropriate flowers to plant over his resting place in our yard - I want those that are pretty - those that Teddy would like to play amongst - and those that will flower in all seasons and are easy to maintain. Preferably they will be of a shallow root variety so that the roots don't grow downwards too far and strangle Teddy in his wooden memorial box.

I have 4 days to think about it, and, as I will probably be the principal person executing the burial (rest of family are rather more detached), I will need to really think fast. Atleast Friday will be the last day of my 30 straight day work block, so I will have some more time for gardening.

On a brighter note, I have pulled myself together now, and will be able to blog about my other loves soon - knitting and cooking!